Return from Abandonment

I know I've been completely absent. I know that, okay? I'm so aware I actually just keep this window open in my browser all the times - I just don't always act on its haunting presence. Also, I know that makes me the web's lamest blogger. I would take all that idle non-blogging time back if I could. I would, but my life has been all thinking, less acting lately, which doesn't make for interesting content either. I've just been thinking. You know when things fall into place and then they fall out and then you're just thinking about everything, but there's no inspiration to act, yet? That's my past 3+ months. Or, at least, I can admit the inspiration to act hits me when I'm driving somewhere, showering or eating lunch in my cube. Don't stop to re-read. You read it right. I have a cube. Well, I have part of a cube, anyway, but that doesn't mean I don't have a full(-time) job, because I DO.

Yes, I am employed in this crazy, effing economic situation. Not only am I employed, but I got the job I WANTED. In fact, the week of October 13th, just after the Jewish New Year (Rosh Hashana and Yom Kippur, my exciting new beginning, see previous post) I had 3 job offers. Oh yes, friends, I decided just 2 weeks earlier to stay home instead of moving away to a bigger city with one of my best friends in search of "better opportunities" and got a job at the best advertising agency in Louisville as a reward. While I don't expect you'd be jealous of a young 20s girl, living at home in Louisville, Kentucky with her parents and grandmother in the suburbs post-college and working for hard for... umm.. some money as an Assistant Account Exec in an ad agency, I do expect you'd be happy for me. I just started a long uphill battle towards advertising glory and I already surpassed the biggest obstacle... breaking into the industry. Ta daaaaa...

Now that I've worked for over 3 months, I will be having my 3-month review. You might expect I'd write about it when it happens, but I'm more likely to hint, because transcribing every compliment my bosses say into a post would be fun to do and relive, but not fun to read. So, like with everything, I will gloat to my parents, Brian (the man I'm really trying to convince of my dedication to a long career) and a few friends. Now that I've broken into the industry, where do I see myself going next? These are things I have to consider before my review... long-term goals, areas to develop, etc. Other than that, I've been all about ideas. I've been trying to come up with ways to make my mediocre life more exciting. I've been considering which talents and interests I want to develop. I came up with one absolute conclusion and immediately realized it is the only one which is probably impossible. So, my dream job would be to direct music videos. The ironic part is I honestly don't even watch music videos that often, but whenever I hear a song I imagine what the video would look like if I art directed it. That would be a great gig. Of course, I'd love to direct commercials, as well. Though, there's less pressure in art directing music videos. If the commercial doesn't sell the product, you probably lose money and credibility. If the music video is only okay, you can come out with another single or people will still listen to your song, if it appeals to them. Plus, the amount of money some artists spend on videos is insane (see Britney's most recent "Circus" video. Wild). I want to be saying, "CUT! You're really not showing passion on your face when you dance with those clowns, Britney, and you're wasting my time. Do it over. I'm not putting shit out just because you're tired and sweating your make-up off."

Now you know my secret. Other than that, I've been struggling with finding a balance between egotism and insecurity in order to start working towards my other, more feasible dream job as a Copywriter. Let it be known, my blog posts shouldn't be a direct reflection of my persuasive and creative potential to write copy. You are here to listen. You're seeking this interruption from your daily life and I can take as much time as I want because this is ultimately for me (and Brian). Advertising is a completely different animal, in which you must be quick and compelling enough in the 1st 10th of a second so that your audience doesn't tune you out. I know what I'm up against. It will take time. I will need to ease my way in that direction, but I will persevere.
So, in order to quickly summarize what you missed in the past 3+ months of my abandonment, this blog contains a picture a little picture/word summary:
I started my job, October 21st.
Brian and I celebrated our 1-year anniversary on October 27th.
My sister had a baby (our family is seriously expanding) on November 23rd. See happy family of 3 (my sister Yana, Neal & Ethan) and the little Turkey pictured below - the new addition.
::family time::
::friend time:: over the holidays
Visited Brian a couple of times.
We spent New Year's in Chicago with our friends from college.
I celebrated a few family member's birthdays.
Celebrated my 3-month anniversary at work.
I returned from blog abandonment.
I am here to stay.